Just the beginning

I been permed since i was 5 yrs old and im now 21 with a 1 year old daughter. I been looking at women with dreads or tight puffs and realized the beauty with natural hair. My cousin who is also my godbrother been growning dreads for some yrs now told me to loc my hair. Now im scared to loc my hair because i have touch-a-phobia. I like different hairstyles which i change every other week. I went from blonde to black within a month. I been bleached,fried,and dyed. I had the weaves which im in love with to the braids. I chopped my hair in 08 for a cute summer look and it was a gift from my mom. Then as of April 09 i decided to chop the rest off and grow it out natural. I researched about locs and wanted them but again i was scared. I wore the wigs or my TWA with pride. I told myself after my 21st bday i will loc it up. So when my birthday came i couldnt find anyone to start my locs and again i was researching for another solution. I came across a video on YOUTUBE about Braidlocs I feel in love with them. On August 3, 2009 I braidloced my hair. They started to unravel within a few days so again i braided them over but smaller. As I sit listening to my favorite mixtape i decided to document everything. Im always a talker but never a blogger. So since Im doing this new journey on a new life with locs and single motherhood I wanted to share it. Im happy with my nappturality and my fam loves it except my dad which he told me perm my hair. Im no longer on the creamy crack journey but a beautiful natural journey. I cant help but sit in the mirror and stare at myself because I feel so sexy and i love the way i look. For a while i thought i was the ugly duckling who transformed in my makeup and my wigs or weaves but now i like feeling like me. Just like Don Juan said Lookie Looky I am in love with myself! Thats my theme song and im gonna rock it every damn day cause im so fuckin Lookie Looky!